More ►Tracing: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLmnV4whvZ4lyBCFttl612uusIH9B6B8Hj
Skip to 02:59 for the unboxing
Hey guys 🌸
-incoming essay-
I was writing the description and it turned to be a self reflection/thank you note. I needed to share with you ᵔᴥᵔ
So, this unboxing/tracing video has been sitting in its folder unedited since May. Simply because I was planning on making a video with both albums (Her + Tear). But then, life happened and I couldn’t order it because of financial issues. And you might say that it’s only 30€ or that I buy magazines all the time. I just didn’t have the money to spend on such things, as I had other priorities. And I avoid asking for money from my parents.
The truth is that this summer was rough for me. The videos I was uploading were either books/magazines I already had or old videos. That’s the main reason why I wasn’t as active. I couldn’t fulfill what I wished to do with my videos. Of course I found other ways to do ASMR videos as I could do the « guess the words » or in general invisible tracing videos. I love making those kinds of videos and you guys seem to really like them, but I was simply unmotivated at that point.
Basically I wasn’t in a good place mentally because of all the stress and everyday struggles. And as I have mentioned before, I avoid making videos when I’m feeling this way because I don’t want to share my negative energy with you. I do believe that it’s important to feel good in order to create something enjoyable for other people, especially an ASMR video.
I try to not share tmi about my personal problems on social media or on my videos (mainly because I’m here to relax you, not stress you too). In the past I’ve shared some of my family problems (which are still going on btw just not as severely as before) and you guys were so sweet and understanding. That’s why I feel comfortable opening up. And I feel that I have to be honest and share w you that I was going through some serious stuff even if in the surface it wasn’t obvious.
I don’t have a huge amount of viewers, but I see and recognize many of you that keep coming back to my videos. I appreciate that so so much and it makes me happy to know that someone had a nice relaxing few minutes, a nap or a good night’s sleep by watching one of my videos. It might not be a huge accomplishment but it makes me genuinely happy. ♥
ASMR was something I heard about accidentally, and tried it when I was experiencing trouble sleeping. It completely changed my life. I am so grateful for everything all these ASMRtists do. I am so grateful that this community exists!
As a child all I needed to go to sleep was to trace something with my fingers (no joke). My mother told me that I used to trace her palm and fingers when I was a baby. And as I got older (5 or 6 yo) I upgraded to a Mickey mouse toy (haha I still remember this toy). I was always asking people to play with my hair to get tingles (even at school). Or ask my cousins to do my makeup (It all makes sense now hahaha). Of course everyone thought I was weird. Now I know only a few people in my life that actually understand and like this feeling.
At high school I had this friend (she’s one of my best friends now) that used to offer to do hand or back massages to me. She’s actually the only person in my life atm who knows that I’m making ASMR videos. She had no clue what ASMR was, but she’s really supportive ♥ I’m so grateful to have her in my life.
Anyway… the whole point of why I am writing all of this I guess is to say that I am finally doing good now. I’m planning more videos and I will be able to buy all the things I wanted for so long 🙂 I am learning and growing every day. I try to stay positive and do what’s best. Even though things might not always go as planned, I’m taking small steps each day to achieve my goals and have gratitude for everything that’s already going great in my life.That’s what we’re supposed to do always.
I LOVE YOU ALL SO SO MUCH! Thank you for being here.
I’m always here, if you need me
I wish you the very best
🌸
ASMRt
Jay
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More videos
►Tracing: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLmnV4whvZ4lyBCFttl612uusIH9B6B8Hj
►BTS ASMR: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLmnV4whvZ4lzd0v9i9Prc8rp39RvKAyKA
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Links for this album:
https://www.amazon.com/LOVE-YOURSELF-Her-BTS/dp/B075KZGM8C
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You can call me ASM-aRT, or ASMR-T 🌸 Or Jay if you want ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ
‘T’ is for the *ｔｉｎｇｌｅｓ* that I wish you get as often as you’d like.
I might help you just a little if you let me 😊